I just can’t TAKE IT ANYMORE.
We’re facing a dilemma. There are three possible outcomes:
1. Rhys goes to preschool. We’re going to “tour” the preschool he WILL be starting either next week or the following Monday. We’re “touring” for the sake of making Rhys feel like it’s just a casual “maybe” when in fact he is going. OH HE IS GOING. I can’t work with him here. He whines, he fights with Henry, he distracts, he throws tantrums, he yells, I spend 80% of my time putting him in time-out or sending him to his room. He is an absolute handful right now and it’s impossible to incorporate him into Henry’s learning, I’ve tried. It doesn’t work. This is totally unfair to Henry and preschool is viable and safe option for Rhys. If he will allow himself, he can have fun, play with others his age, learn and get out of the house for a couple of hours each week. I just hope he’ll acclimate and not…do his thing. Both boys will still do CC.
2. Rhys will NOT work with the preschool folks and they won’t let him stay. This is entirely possible. If he acts there like he does here, they won’t keep him. They couldn’t – they’d have to structure the entire class around his behavior and that’s unfair to the whole class! In that case we continue on as we have been and hope Henry learns something and everyone is miserable. We will still do CC.
3. Henry goes to public school while I try and deal with Rhys’ behavior. I’ve already put in a call to the Vice Principle at the school he’d go to but I haven’t heard back from her yet. If I don’t hear today, that is not encouraging to me. Someone could call me back, I had a very specific question – what curriculum is used for phonics and math. I really don’t care who calls, I just want to know what the 1st grade uses. In this case Rhys will do CC for the rest of the year, but Henry will have to drop out but we can always do the material at home with him
It’s been a hard, hair-wrenching, tear-filled week. I feel completely overwhelmed. I feel like I am failing at everything I am doing: housework, being in charge of the family finances, laundry, homeschooling Henry, disciplining Rhys, food shopping, meal preparation, meal PLANNING, lesson planning!, getting everyone ready every Sunday morning, getting everyone out of bed everyday and out the door, worrying about our retirement, health insurance, savings account, keeping everyone in clothes that fit, trying to keep the outdoors cleaned up to the best of my ability, it’s just…a lot. And then you add to that the fact that I’m still struggling with my dad’s death and sad because I can’t see my mom a lot to help with that and feel alone a lot…it’s just very hard, this daily life.
Sorry for the pity party. Not sure I should have published it. Rhys is back to pitching a fit. I just want to crawl in a hole! GARRR!!!
Posted on October 19, 2012, in Donna being Donna, Homeschooling, Kid Stuff and tagged CC, Classical Conversations, Curriculum, difficult preschooler, Education, homeschool, overwhelmed mom, Preschool education, public school. Bookmark the permalink. 13 Comments.